Starting Fresh
know it seems a little crazy to delete a whole blog and start over again, but I’m doing exactly that. I’ve stopped doing anything with this blog for a really long time because I think I felt really disconnected with it. I kept wanting to start new projects and do new things, I even started a few different blogs on different subjects. I couldn’t keep up with or finish things which adds to my anxiety of how many things I “have to” do. I’m fully realizing that I create these problems for myself, but having a blog is something I feel drawn to do in order to share my artwork and life.
So as I contemplated just getting rid of every single blog and starting a new one I told myself to just hold on a minute. Peace, love, and vegetables is really more true to my life than it ever. For the last few months I have been on a path to better myself. I know it sounds totally cliche, especially around this time of year, but its true in the most real way it ever has been. I’m not trying to lose a bunch of weight or do this better or that better. I’m working slowly from the inside out to be calmer, feel less pain, manage my anxiety. And to be able to pass that real internal love and kindness on to others.
A big part of this journey has been getting therapy from Chicago Women’s Healthcenter—a group of WONDERFUL women and trans-folk who have so much compassion and patience to share. Through this process I have learned to slow down, learn love myself, not pile so much on myself, give of myself what I can but to not feel guilty saying no, and much more. This therapy continues to equip me with ways of being more connected with my world and the people in it.
So the reason I decided to keep this blog but remove everything is because of how relevant it is to my own journey. All three things (peace, love, and vegetables) are my key to leading a more healthy and vibrant life. I want this to be a place to share whatever I’m doing or thinking without giving it a strict theme. I’m abandoning my other blogs and putting everything here—my artwork, food, found things, knitting, projects, writing, etc.
Blessings and love to everyone for 2012!
